new chapter. again.

after a few grueling month i've been struggling with my unhealthy relationship with him, now i realize that this maybe the biggest challenge that all the married couple would face in their marriage. yeah, i know guys will face their middle age crisis. (right? like in the tv?? XD)

takpe, aku dah tawu macam mane nak handle masalah yang seiring dengannyer, insyaAllah kalo jadi lagi, nasib kau la aku lanyak kau dengan kate2 aku yang sinis dan sadis ni.

i really thought that me and him would be over. mati2 aku pikir relationship aku dgn die mmg da nak hancor,mati,tenggelam,dan sewaktu dengannye. aku yg struggle nak idopkan and selamatkan hubungan ni akhirnye menjadik jugak. peh. walawaei, penat doh. seriously, kalo pompuan lain ditimpe masalah macam aku kene ni, comfirm2 da babai la jawabnye. yela, ditipu,dicurangi,diputarbelit,dihine,difitnah,dikutuk dan lain2 lagi bende negetive lagi. nasib baik tak di pukul. kalo ye, confirm2 babai la beb. you'll never see me again. kat akhirat la kau nampak aku nnt.

but, relationship need two person to work it out. maybe this would be the last chance i gave him. (dulu pon ckp last chance jugak, tp bagi lagi pelung. bodoh kan aku?) kalo tak menjadi jugak maybe kiteorg takde jodoh & maybe im just fooling myself..

dah.aku pon tak tawu nak tulis pe lagi dah. cam org tak betol aku tgk ni.